Meh nak cakap sikit

So, awak kat mana..?
haha tetiba.. ok macam ini uolss..yaAllah kita geram sgt..adalah a few people ini, they post gambar dekat insta with caption i gemuk, i pendek, i itu i ini... the thing is that they are not! and it starts to get on my nerve. no seriously..they are pretty, thin and tall but labelling themselves as not. why o why my pretty baes?
While you guys were condeming yourself, we here, the real pendek, gemuk gegurls are trying to find the best angle ever so that we can look kurus and thin and pretty.

Don't you get it? you are not ugly, you are pretty! I got girl crush on you! The real short, fat, bearing 5 kilos cheeks on each side babes will try and struggle to find the best angle, and since you guys are not struggling as much as we do, PLEASE, stop putting those @#$% captions.

Pardon my bahasa rojak. It happens all the time when I try to luahkan perasaan yang membuak-buak macam volkano merah membarrrre. tehee..tak marah pun, x emo pun, Im writing this with a smile on my face. okbai. PUAS HATI. ;)

Syukur

Curi masa sikit curi masa sikit haha

esok exam.. Dermatology.

Mmm sebenarnya dah lama nak pos cerita ini, tapi tersangkut-sangkut pula usaha nak buka site ini.

So, after days...barulah dapat buka. Plus, I would like to make up for the post before this post. I would say the last post is #postmimibuatteruk

Haha.. It's all in my head. 

Ok meh kita bagi cerita best plak.

Macam ini, minggu terakhir kitorang untuk sem yang ke sembilan hari itu, kitorg kena pergi ambil zachot (sistem Rusia). Aku tolong ambilkan untuk satu subjek ini memandangkan aku free lah juga. After ups and downs.. aku tak dapat pun nak jadi hero untuk classmate aku huhu..

Lepas kegagalan itu, aku terus pergi kelas Ruski. Masa sampai itu, Jiha hulur blinni and Syahrin hulur pisang! They knew I were hungry and tak sempat lunch..hwarghhh terharunya. Tak kisah la bagi apa pun. The thought is all matter. Sweet gila..huhu hilang terus wey penat aku. Even masa aku pergi ambil zachot tu pun, diorang ada mesej tanya aku dah sampai ke, ok ke tak, itu ke ini ke.. oo by the way, Adam yang senyap2 tu pun dok risau kat aku. rupa-rupanya dia bawak chocolate utk aku, tapi dia kata dia dah termakan ahaha xpela adam..it's okay. 

Sekali-sekala dpt rasa org syg kita, caring pasal kita. haha.. Seronoknya saya. hihi ok bye. esok exam. Pray for me. 

"Being generous to useless people".. K-comedian

#tajuk orang putih, isi orang melayu. hihi

Post kali ini, nampak gaya macam nak buka aib diri sendiri. Tapi memandangkan satu-satunya sebab aku tetap menulis blog ini adalah : untuk rujukan diri sendiri dlm usaha mematangkan diri, jadi aku akan tulis la.

Aku pun tak sedar sejak bila, tapi, aku dah mula ajar diri sendiri untuk buat baik dekat mana-mana orang dengan harapan orang itu buat baik dekat orang lain. Sebab kalau aku harap dia buat baik balik dekat aku, aku akan kecewa.

Mungkin benda ni mula bila aku baca satu artikel pasal orang buat baik dekat "random people". It's a great deed. I'm impressed by their deed and since I realised that I am not a girl with a lot of good deeds I decided to do this thing- do good things for random people. Alhamdulillah setakat ini aku puas hati. seronok dapat seronok kan org lain.

Mungkin juga benda ni mula bila ayah aku cerita yg dia layan pekerja dia yang pendatang asing sbb dia harap anak dia ini dilayan baik juga kat sini. huhu terharunya. Jadi aku selalu usaha untuk layan org2 tua sebaik mungkin dengan harapan ada orang akan tengok-tengokkan parents aku.

Tapi! Godaan syaitan sungguh. Hati aku asyik goyah je, terasa nak mengungkit, mungkin tak terkeluar di mulut; tapi di hati, hanya Allah dan aku sahaja yg tahu. oh kecewa sungguh dengan diri sendiri. Tapi kecewa juga dengan mereka-mereka yang macam tak nampak usaha aku nak ada silaturrahim yang deep dengan diorang. So sad. If I am to consider these people as random people than I won't be this dissapointed.

Ibu pesan, ikhlas kan hati. Ikhlas kan semua. Huhu.. I am.. tapi diorang ini kering sgt ada yg kejam sgt sampai rasa nk mengungkit. huhu Ada ke patut kejam sampai boleh nak boikot aku? Aku bukan mengelakkan diri, tapi sibuk sangat, tak dapat nak join. Aku ada prioriti. Dah dua tiga kali aku 'loose'kan prioriti supaya tak dianggap menjauhkan diri, jadi tolonglah hargai usaha aku ini, kenapa masih nak boikot, balas dendam dengan aku.

"Being generous to useless person"..exactly how I feel,,, well not most of the times. So, should I consider myself as being generous to random people?

A Theory of Everything

A week ago, I finished watching one Korean series. The male lead is schizo and having Lou Gehrig's disease in delusional state. Which means..he created a disease he doesn't have.

A Theory of Everything. Another story with the main lead having Lou Gehrig's disease. Now, isn't it cool, when you are a medical student and know something's medical-related through your entertainment. Well,, at least I don't feel that much of a guilty for having some relaxing time of mine haha

So, while watching this movie, it gave me goosebumps for a few times. 

First, when a scientist is diagnosed with a disease so called Lou Gehrig's disease. "Hey, I knew this disease like a few days ago, and it affects the male lead also!"

Second, when he got kid despite his illness. Someone used to tell me, that there is  this one engineer trying to built a bridge. But unfortunately, he lost his ability to talk, so his sons continue the construction of the bridge. So, I was kinda.. "haa..is this him? the engineer who's trying to built a bridge? Jeng3..." So, I was thrilled and kept watching although the story is kinda slow-progressing type of a movie.

Third, when he lost his ability to speak. Like I said, the story that I recalled. The engineer. He also lost his ability to speak just like the male lead in this movie. His son continued the effort to construct the bridge  by communicating with his father through a special method.

Fourth, when the female lead brought a board with letter! "I knew it. This is the guy! The guy and a bridge"...Continue my recall...-that special method is to ask his father to blink at the letter the son shows.

Fifth, when there is a close up of the male lead. "oh my god! This is the scientist I met in Madame Tussauds, London!"

Fifth, when at the end of the story, he divorced and he is not connected with bridge at all. So my recall of the story is not precise at some points. Haha..well I have expected that not-precise-recall from myself. A girl who have very weak memory and so little general knowledge. I kinda mixed up the story. I was all correct about a great person losing ability to communicate and his wife uses a board of letters to communicate with her. And it's him- Stephen Hawking. But it has nothing to do with the bridge. oh, it was Brooklyn Bridge by the way. haha.... Now, you can go research about Brooklyn Brige by the way. The Brooklyn Bridge has nothing to do with losing ability to speak, but it is true that the construction is continued by the sons of the engineer.

Now, there is one more thing I would like to share or argue or comment. When Jane decided to marry Stephen despite his illness and their young age-and giving excuses that they love each other. I strongly disagree with this. Live in reality my dear. Love is not everything. You might get tired and bored of it. Most of us do. 

But then she proved me wrong when they got three children and she is still by his side by the  time he received the tittle professor. oh what a great love this is. Remind me of Habibi and Ainun. 

But again, when I already have the courage to believe that great love like that exist, heading to the end of the movie, Jane and Stephen divorced! OMG..how disappointing  this is. Plus, it is mutual agreement. Stephen got Elaine and Jane got Jonathan. 

First, Jane said she wanted to marry Stephen because she loves him, but then she's the first one to 'betray' Stephen by having feelings for Jonathan. Stephen, when he married Elaine- "I'm glad that I marry a woman I love"- seriously? Jane had been by your side all this time, going through all hardships and you says you love this new lady, oh seriously.  I'm not trying to condemn their love story. But if you will have to marry for a  few times to find the right one..then I'm scared I'll be scared of marriage. My conclusion is..there is no single theory of everything. Just live your life.